So today was my first day at the RID Region V Western Conference (an ASL conference) And it was a pretty fun experience! I didn't get to stay as long as I would have liked because my ride needed to leave but the 5 hours I spent there were great. There's nothing better than signing again. I miss it so much and its really nice to use it again. I can't wait to be using it more on a daily basis again. We ended up getting cool name badges, a back pack that has a ASL symbol on it, tons of free merch and a lot of other cool stuff! I still have two more days so I should be able to get lots of signing time in. I'll put up pictures soon. Promise!
My best friend Erica was able to go with me and she is absolutely amazing. She has helped me a lot the past few days, really just being there when I need her and listening to me. She is such a great example and an amazing friend. Plus its awesome that we are able to sign to each other whenever we want!
I did break the rules today though. I promised myself I wasn't going to call James for at least a few weeks, but I was talking with a friend and he brought up the point that if we were both too afraid to talk to each other again it wouldn't be able to move forward. I really thought about it because for the last day or so I've really felt like I needed to call him. So I did. And it was a horrible idea. Of course. He was just at a steak dinner with a bunch of his friends and needed to go because "his food was getting cold." My heart sank. His voice didn't seem to have the same care that I had hoped it would or sounded surprised to hear that I called or anything. But what hit me even more was the thought that he's out there living his life like nothing has happened and he has friends to take his mind off of things and people to hang out with and see while I'm sitting here at home. If I had anyone to go out with, I would. But I don't really have anyone besides Erica and I'm pretty sure she doesn't want to see the wreck that I am every day when she's not working or helping her dad. I felt even more alone than I was before. And disappointed. I should have listened to what everyone was saying when they said "don't call." But of course, dumb ol' me decides to take the initiative and get hurt. Again.
But then I came across this little number. It instantly gave me a happy strong feeling and its also in ASL! So it totally has a place in my heart now! Hopefully you'll love it too!
Definitely an interesting video! I had no idea they did stuff like that for ASL! Good thing I have a cousin that's so youtube savvy because if I didn't, I wouldn't be nearly as culturally aware. :)
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